A Word, an Anthem, and a New Beginning

2 Jan
2012

I have been hearing around the interwebz a lot of people talking about their one word. The one word they want the new year to encompass.

Bliss

It got a great start yesterday. Bronwyn hasn’t been napping well on the weekends, but yesterday she went down without a fight. We had a great morning and when naptime arrived she laid down, looked at a book, and went to sleep.

At this point I picked up the copy of The Hunger Games  I had purchased that day, crawled into bed, sipped on mimosas and played music on my awesome new iHome that you can dock your iPhone/iPod. I laid there among the music and soaked up the words.

I had not sat and read a book in ages. Longer than I could remember. Especially one with real pages and not just electronic words on a screen. Feeling the crisp paper turn under my fingers was like coming home.

Bliss

While I relaxed, and read, and sipped a mimosa, I realized in that moment I was the happiest I had been in ages. And it was all within reach. I did not have to go on an immense soul-searching journey. My family was in the house, husband relaxing in the living room, tot napping, me reading, and realizing we were all taking a moment to recharge ourselves. I even dozed off for a few minutes.

Bliss

I awoke to Bronwyn making sounds over the monitor and walked into her room, to the happiest little girl.  She wasn’t trying to escape her crib as she usually does, which reminds me that we’ll be doing the big girl bed transition any day now. The joy just radiated off of her.  She was laying in her crib, just humming and singing. She got up and was in such a good mood.

Bliss

Steven and I got Bronwyn bundled up and put on her helmet. We gave her the Radio Flyer trike for Christmas. Finally big enough to really run and climb, we pushed her to the park.  She wanted to swing, and they have the swing seats for the little ones, and the regular swing seats adjacent. Steven pushed Bronwyn up high, like she likes it and I started pumping my legs on the bigger swing. Exhilaration, bliss, happiness is what I felt again in that moment. Hearing the deep belly laughs of my little girl right next to me as she yelled “Higher, Mama, Higher!” Feeling freedom in that moment. Once again such a simple moment brought me such great joy.

Bliss

Along with a word for a year I have found my anthem. My song for the year.

I had heard snippets of the lyric “But it’s always darkest before the dawn.”  I bought the whole album and was so pleased. Florence’s haunting vocal sound and these words are just what I needed to hear.

I would love to hear all of your words or anthems for the year, live a link in your comment if you’ve written about it, or just share here!

“Shake It Out”

Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to playAnd every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues strong
It’s always darkest before the dawnAnd I’ve been a fool and I’ve been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I’m always dragging that horse aroundAll of these questions, such a mournful sound
Tonight I’m gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues strong
But it’s always darkest before the dawnShake it up, shake it out, shake it up, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it up, shake it out, shake it up, shake it out, ooh woaaaah

And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I’m gonna cut it out and then restart
Cause I like to keep my issues strong
It’s always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah

And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It’s a fine romance but it’s left me so undone
It’s always darkest before the dawn

Oh woah, oh woah…

And I’m damned if I do and I’m damned if I don’t
So here’s to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I’m ready to suffer and I’m ready to hope
It’s a shot in the dark and right at my throat
Cause looking for heaven, for the devil in me
Looking for heaven, for the devil in me
Well what the hell I’m gonna let it happen to me

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah

And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh woaaah

And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh woah

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  • http://twitter.com/mscaffeinejunky melissa

    My anthem for the year will be “live”. Life is too short to not just “live”.

    • Anonymous

      I absolutely love this. Hugs to you. 

  • http://inthesesmallmoments.com/ Nichole

    Oh, Eileen…I’m so happy to read this post.
    I know that the past several months have been rough ones and you’ve felt a bit adrift.
    Reading your words here lifts my heart. 
    May the year ahead be filled with pure bliss. xoxo

    • Anonymous

      Nichole thank you! Your are always an inspiration for me, so thank you for being my friend.

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